Well, as I've continued to sit and stew about this whole SYTYCD thing, a couple realizations have come to me. Mostly, the fact of the matter is, while I do want to do this audition thing for myself, I mostly want to do it because someone who I look down on as a dancer did it, and I feel the need to prove myself as better than her. I don't think this is a positive rationalization for doing anything. Secondly, I have received some very strong signs in the past hour to further steer me away from thinking I should audition.
1-I was accepted to the NCUR (National Council of Undergraduate Research) held in Maryland the 2nd week of April. I had already been accepted for UCUR (Utah's...) which is an accomplishment in itself, but now I am committed to not only the trip, but the necessary preparation to present at such a conference. I actually got accepted for two different research submissions, one in Dance History, and one in Dance Kinesiology. If I were to make it through to Vegas, I would have to reschedule my finals to take them early, but now I won't be able to reschedule them due to my (school paid) trip to Maryland.
2-My partner for my auditions informed me that he wouldn't be able to miss school in order to try out with me. I could do something besides Ballroom, but honestly, I'm rusty, and even at my peak I would have a hard time competing with all the studio babies in Utah. There are 10 year olds that dance for Center Stage, Vibe, Winner School, etc that could kick my trash, let alone those recently graduated seniors who are dying to go professional. My jazz, contemporary, and tumbling need to be the back-up to my ballroom, but none are strong enough to stand alone for my audition.
I realize these posts aren't fun...but I figure rather than having this conversation 12 times with every member of my family and circle of friends, I can just put my thoughts here, and you can comment or ignore me until I post something exciting...
Love you all...I'm eager to hear your input.
5 years ago
9 comments:
Again -- I know you will be totally shocked at my response, but I think there is a time and season for everything and now is not the time. First consideration is your health -- I know you could push yourself to do this, but you already have some health issues. Pushing even harder than you are now could exacerbate the problem. Second, your education is more important than your ego. UCUR and NCUR will get you places and look better--more professional on a resume than SYTUCD (except, of course, you are going to go professional with some dance troup). I always thought your goal was to be an inspirational, motivational dance teacher. I love watching you perform and you know I will always be there front and center -- however, I will always be there for you no matter what you decide!
Giselle, You ultimately have to be the one to make this decision, that being said I really think that there will be another chance at SYTYCD, really a year isn't that far away and the NCUR conference will give you a whole new world of connections!!1 My number one advice, GO TO THE TEMPLE. spend some time really pondering and praying you will definitely find your answer there.
SITYSND - at least not trying out for the show. Stay on the team and get ready for your trip to London. How many chances will you have to go to...oh wait, nevermind.
By the way, I really am worried about the mysterious infection. Why don't you take a break from everything and see if they will go away.
Take a break from everything, ha ha h ah aha ha haha hah a...ha ha. They're going away now (again) and I shouldn't have them again within the next 6 months, since that's how long I'll be on my antibiotic. :) But thanks for the thought, I really appreciate it. Love you guys!
I guess you shouldn't do it. But I think there will be a big part of you that will regret it, especially when you are watching other people and thinking, "I am way better than they are!"
Giselle, everyone knows that you can dance, and you have nothing to prove to anyone! You are a incredible person that will succeed at whatever you decide to do. I am a huge fan of that show though and watching you win it all would be awesome!
Addison
Oh man, I have been telling everyone I know about my little sister who could totally make the show and saying this was the year she was finally going to be on. I know you won't do it next year because nursing boobs are way too big to dance!
Hey, I have an idea...let's not talk about boobs on this blog anymore, alrighty?
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